I had my Second Meeting with SG yesterday...eep Next meeting is the big one.
This one was much more AWK because it wasn't just a "getting to know you" meeting, it was more of a "here's what you are in for" meeting.
SO he told me it would be a progression spanking:
Hand spanking over dress
Hand spanking over panties
Hand spanking bare bottom
I believe that's the order he said, in all honesty I was in and out of the conversation. It is very hard to keep focused when talking about something so nerve wracking, also I'm out of my ADHD meds, which never helps... I'm rambling... because I'm nervous.... Anyway...
He suggested we do it last night "rip off the band-aid" but my mind was panicking WAY too much for that. I said I needed to take a day to process. He kept saying that it would be easier to do it sooner, but I know that mentally it would not have worked last night. I was not in the right mental state.
So we parted and I called the safety net, let them know I was okay.
I had a long chat with Wendy about all of it she calmed me down, and told me funny stories about Pete and his wife Rose (ha ha ha Pete Rose that was unintentional, sorry for the inconvenient re naming) About how she went from Pete's sub to his Domme. It was a very good chat, and I am grateful we had it.
Today I am still nervous. But not scared. In fact, right now I think I'm numb to nervousness...
so that's, good? IDK...
He is picking me up at 5:30pm and the safety net is getting installed :-)
Wendy is so amazing, always making sure I'm safe!
This is my first time meeting with a top!
I'll let you know how it goes!