My first spanking with SG pt 3

SG and I played online, and I thought we were all done with the spanking. We made a list of rules along with the consequences of breaking said rules. I didn't agree with most of the consequences. For example, the number one thing I wanted to work on was exercise, and the only punishment for not exercising was loss of Spanko-internet privledges for a day.

I knew it was my job to speak up, but I was scared. I didn't really know him that well, and I didn't know my limits yet, being a noob. I understood what Wendy was saying about keeping it safe, and I realized I wasn't as safe as I could have been because I didn't really know SG

Finally, I was ready to leave when he turns to me and says, "Are you ready for the last part of your spanking?"

Is he joking? He was joking earlier, when he gave me five playful swats. He said only three sessions over his knee. Surely, he's not serious! My mind raced with questions, this was not what we discussed. I nodded speechless.

"This is going to be the hardest session and it will be on the bare bottom." He said "Understood?"
WHAT?!
"Yes, sir" I squeeked out of my lips
This is what you wanted, this is what you wanted I reminded myself over and over again.

As he TWACKED and SMACKED me harded than ever, I lay limp on his lap wishing it would end.

Mechanically everything was right, but emotionally it didn't work.

After a few smacks he stood me up and told me to get the new panties on.
I felt awkward in them, but they were thick cotton and offered some protection.
As I lay on his lap again he tells me he is going to give me fifty more and I am to yell out when we get to 10, 20, 30, 40, and 50

It was an exercise in concentration, he says.

Don't fuck up or he'll start over! I yell to myself.

10 and 20, come rather easily, but then he says he is going to start mixing it up and varying the tempo. I get 30 just barely but when he gets to 40 he speeds up so fast and I am sooo flustered I cannot say 40 in time.

"That was 42 not 40." He says "We are starting over."
OMG! Really? I though that was 40 are you sure?

He starts again. All I can focus on are the numbers. I am mouthing them to try and keep up with his rapid pace changing. I forget about safe words, or the scene, or anything. ALL I can think about is counting
This time the same thing happens at 40 except this time I know I fucked up.
"What number was that really?" He says sternly
"I don't know." I say almost about to cry, He just cannot start again!
"That was 43" He says
FUCK!
"It just sped up so much! I didn't...." my words trail off, I know they're of no use to me now.
"You are really blistered and bruised, so I won't make you start again." He says
SMACK SMACK
"We are now at the last 5, these are going to be the hardest five of the night, understand?"
"Yes, sir."

SMACK

SMACK

SMACK

SMACK

SMACK
Owwwww!

I squeal then I collapse into him for aftercare. I am shaking and scared. The other after care felt false. This time I felt like if I didn't collapse into him, I'd just collapse.

At the end he shared with me his alter, which was very special.

I know for him he didn't know what was happening within my head, he didn't know that it was too hard for me because I didn't say anything, I don't blame him for any wrong doing, I just wish I had opened my mouth sometimes.

The real problems started the next day.

My bottom was sore and swollen, bruised and blistered.
All this from a hand!? I thought, and disciplines will be worse?!

I was under the impression the implements would necessarily be worse, because I hadn't had any yet.

I was promised 5 swats with a hairbrush per minute late, so I was 30 minutes early to work.
On my way to my acting class I broke down crying because of traffic.
When I got home and he was online he I invited him into conference with my spanko family.
He asked if I got his email yet. I told him I hadn't read my email yet. He asked to see me in PM NOW.

He told me I was going to get 20 with the hairbrush for not having checked my E-mail yet.
At this point I "shouted" in caps lock "I AM DONE"

Following this there was a lot of speculation and drama, about whether what he did was right or wrong.

I still maintain that I should have said something, otherwise how would he know it didn't work for me?

After seeing the picture, other people said that if he was an experienced top, he should not have gone that hard my first time.

Some people got really mad at him and sent him mean messages.
He left the online scene for a bit and I posted a forum message in his favor, stating that he did nothing wrong.

After that, generally opinion of him was good, but he had already left the scene online, and moved to UK for a few weeks.

The reason I didn't post on this, is I didn't really know what to say for a while. I wanted the heat of the topic to die down first.

Thats all for now.

I've had some really great experiences since then too, and I can't wait to share them!

Second Meet Up with SG

Hello!
I had my Second Meeting with SG yesterday...eep Next meeting is the big one.
This one was much more AWK because it wasn't just a "getting to know you" meeting, it was more of a "here's what you are in for" meeting.

SO he told me it would be a progression spanking:
Corner time
Hand spanking over dress
Corner time
Hand spanking over panties
Corner time
Hand spanking bare bottom
Corner time
After care

I believe that's the order he said, in all honesty I was in and out of the conversation. It is very hard to keep focused when talking about something so nerve wracking, also I'm out of my ADHD meds, which never helps... I'm rambling... because I'm nervous.... Anyway...

He suggested we do it last night "rip off the band-aid" but my mind was panicking WAY too much for that. I said I needed to take a day to process. He kept saying that it would be easier to do it sooner, but I know that mentally it would not have worked last night. I was not in the right mental state.

So we parted and I called the safety net, let them know I was okay.
I had a long chat with Wendy about all of it she calmed me down, and told me funny stories about Pete and his wife Rose (ha ha ha Pete Rose that was unintentional, sorry for the inconvenient re naming) About how she went from Pete's sub to his Domme. It was a very good chat, and I am grateful we had it.

Today I am still nervous. But not scared. In fact, right now I think I'm numb to nervousness...
so that's, good? IDK...

He is picking me up at 5:30pm and the safety net is getting installed :-)
Wendy is so amazing, always making sure I'm safe!

This is my first time meeting with a top!
I'll let you know how it goes!

Michelle

WOW I've come a long way

Hello ALL
I have come a long way from the timid lurker I started here as, and it's only been a month and a half!

The Spankee Devil's been unleashed!

I say this because on Bottom Lines, I have made a tight knight group of friends. There are 5 of us. And we are all meeting in July, for as my friend calls it "a spanking orgy of sorts."
There are Two tops and Three bottoms on this trip. (Though technically the tops are switches, not for this trip)

And I will get some real spankings with two other girls, one is 20 like me the other is 26.
I am so STOKED. We've become like a little family, chatting everyday, sometimes with video chat.

Bratting and spankings and all....
The girls and I are going to be in for it!

I will keep you posted on that after it happens in mid July

Also I am meeting a spanker (SG) this week. We will discuss him being my consistant DD partner. SG and I will meet tomorrow and we will do an actual spanking in the near future.
The first thing he had me do is write an essay on WHY I NEED A DISCIPLINARIAN this morning he had me do corner time on web cam.

I don't think I like web cam play, real pain no real after care :-(

Moreover when I go to New York I will be meeting with my friend BV. So I have a lot of imminent spankings to tell you about!!

More in the near future!

Thanks and Spanks
Michelle